I have no shame in saying I’m having some counselling right now.
Talking and opening up about past events you haven’t been able to let go is good for your soul. Bottling all those emotions over years and years can weigh you down so much and create a black hole, that’s ever expanding.
Yesterday’s session was a tough one and for the rest of the day I was exhausted, sleeping for 3 hours afterward, feeling physically sick and drained so much so I actually questioned whether I had the flu. I spent the night mostly awake reliving moments in my past. Drifting into broken sleep and dreaming of those events like watching a picture show on a broken camera reel.
From this I realised the journey through my mind, release of hidden trauma, is going to be very tough.
I spoke to my husband and daughter and let them know that although the therapy seems now to make me feel worse, infact by opening Pandora’s box, letting go and thinking differently I can be stronger in myself and heal. I’m lucky they both understand I need to do this.
Everyone’s journey is unique, personal and for some traumatic, for the period between releasing and healing.
I’m happy to share my journeys emotional rollercoaster with you all because it helps me, I hope it will help you too.
Stop Walking on Egg Shells 