This journey is still a struggle.
From knowing I’ll never be able to eat a full size meal to surgery problems and hair loss, there are pitfalls I wish I’d known prior to going through with it.
The worst is actually the body dysmorphia. I still buy clothes too big and feel big myself and I know it’s in my head.
But I am grateful, to look back at before and see with my own eyes the change. I still have a little to go but not much.
I know i can go in any shop and buy whatever I like, I fit in the Bath with extra room, I don’t need extra room on aeroplanes, boots fit my legs, I’m fitter and in less pain daily, I feel less self conscious.
When I spoke to my Bariatric team in the UK, they said people have surgery all over the world due to the costs in the UK and those who have surgery in the UK still have the same problems. This did make me feel better and less foolish for going abroad for surgery.
I keep wondering if I did the right thing and then I look back at my old self and I know I did, I can live a longer healthier life now, more time to explore the world and without the extra weight holding me down.
What ever you do, own your journey, take before and after pictures, remind yourself why you’re doing this, keep a journal and love your body, it’s the only one you have.