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Bariatric Downs…

I havent posted for a while. Six days and it feels like months ago, time goes very slow when you don’t feel your best. Sorry for the last photo! But anyway, after I was discharged I went on an outpatient waiting list. 6-8 weeks. Despite me saying how sick I was on the tube feed.Continue reading “Bariatric Downs…”

Feeling a little let down

I’ve had a great 15 day stay at the hotel NHS Hospital where I have seen first hand the hard work and effort the nurses put in to caring above and beyond their duties for those admitted. However, I’ve also experienced the miscommunication between consultants, difference of opinions resulting in differing advice and therefore ultimatelyContinue reading “Feeling a little let down”

Bless Our NHS

But damn the Tories and Branson. As I sat in A&E, at 7am, on Tuesday, doubled in pain, I look up and see the wait time list, 10 hours. Now luckily for me I guess, I’m not here with a break, I’m here with internal pain around my stomach and gall bladder and having hadContinue reading “Bless Our NHS”

Weightloss with surgery?

So I’m often asked if I could have lost the weight without the surgery. Without a doubt yes! IF I had known what I know now. I had Bypass surgery so what they did was take a small egg sized slice from the top of my stomach, route some intestine to it to create andContinue reading “Weightloss with surgery?”

Let it go

I realised I’ve been holding onto so much. Thoughts, opinions, things that are none of my concern because other peoples actions aren’t my issue and their thoughts their own not mine. I’m letting it all go, I don’t care because it’s none of my business too. I am only responsible for what I think andContinue reading “Let it go”

Love Yourself

This journey is still a struggle. From knowing I’ll never be able to eat a full size meal to surgery problems and hair loss, there are pitfalls I wish I’d known prior to going through with it. The worst is actually the body dysmorphia. I still buy clothes too big and feel big myself andContinue reading “Love Yourself”

Depressed day

I’ve been trying to look after myself a little better. I’ve had my hair and nails done, today I’m having eye lash extensions. And yet all of this is a front as I feel empty. I don’t know why, I have lots I should be thankful for. I have zero energy, I don’t care reallyContinue reading “Depressed day”

Teens need hugs too

Especially mine but on their terms of course. I don’t know what triggers anxiety and panic attacks with me or my teen, sometimes it just happens. Last night around 10.30pm I had a tearful, shaking 16year old rush in, jump in my bed and hug me. I held her close and told her I wasContinue reading “Teens need hugs too”

Silence is Golden

Not all the times of course, simple pleasure comes from sound. Silence of the mind however is worth more than any gold. Being able to turn off the internal monologue and chatter, such a beautiful thing to do. To be completely at peace. I’m working on this but it eludes me. Eventually I actually endContinue reading “Silence is Golden”

Eeek, honest RNY post.

Off to see my new Bariatric surgeon who has been assisting me in the UK, Leeds, with the post operative issues I’ve been having. To say I’m nervous is an understatement. I’m unsure whether I will need another dilation to the stricture I had at my stomach exit, or maybe my current issues could beContinue reading “Eeek, honest RNY post.”