Feeling a little let down

I’ve had a great 15 day stay at the hotel NHS Hospital where I have seen first hand the hard work and effort the nurses put in to caring above and beyond their duties for those admitted. However, I’ve also experienced the miscommunication between consultants, difference of opinions resulting in differing advice and therefore ultimately

Bless Our NHS

But damn the Tories and Branson. As I sat in A&E, at 7am, on Tuesday, doubled in pain, I look up and see the wait time list, 10 hours. Now luckily for me I guess, I’m not here with a break, I’m here with internal pain around my stomach and gall bladder and having had

Let it go

I realised I’ve been holding onto so much. Thoughts, opinions, things that are none of my concern because other peoples actions aren’t my issue and their thoughts their own not mine. I’m letting it all go, I don’t care because it’s none of my business too. I am only responsible for what I think and

Depressed day

I’ve been trying to look after myself a little better. I’ve had my hair and nails done, today I’m having eye lash extensions. And yet all of this is a front as I feel empty. I don’t know why, I have lots I should be thankful for. I have zero energy, I don’t care really

Teens need hugs too

Especially mine but on their terms of course. I don’t know what triggers anxiety and panic attacks with me or my teen, sometimes it just happens. Last night around 10.30pm I had a tearful, shaking 16year old rush in, jump in my bed and hug me. I held her close and told her I was

Eeek, honest RNY post.

Off to see my new Bariatric surgeon who has been assisting me in the UK, Leeds, with the post operative issues I’ve been having. To say I’m nervous is an understatement. I’m unsure whether I will need another dilation to the stricture I had at my stomach exit, or maybe my current issues could be

Short Story: Earth

It was as though the Earth had set motions into reverse. Women became a commodity for ownership, animals became meat, children became currency. The world was dying. The Men wanted to believe they could fix things. Alas they could not and as children starved and women fought again the chains of suppression to regain their

Moody teens

I took my teen out today, look round some Christmas decorations, garden centre, hot chocolate and sausage roll. Bought a few special items. I had a lovely time ignoring the sulking from the teen. The whole time. The hating the crowds. The sausage roll is disgusting. The hot chocolate was rank. The shops were boring.

Teen nightmares

I’m not sure how to deal with this. When the nightmares are trauma related. There’s very little support for teens with PTSD. I’ve tried happy thoughts before sleep, taking control on dreams by telling her to see me their saving her, talking about them; nothing so far seems to work. So now I lie awake

Evil Next Door

Written by Faye Firth   As her neighbor stalked the hallways Put poison in her milk The authorities could do nothing No evidence they would chink She… Evil Next Door