Lost

We had plans I had plans To travel together See the world Visit places out of the ordinary Swim in different seas I’m mourning my lost dreams I don’t want to do them without you I’m lost in my own solitary Nothing feels the same I love you.

I Was Visited.

A few days ago, I was in terrible pain. I was scared and I was being rushed back into surgery. But I remember so vivid the colour and detail in features the dream I had after surgery. A golden person so bright they shone brighter than anything we can see, visited me. They did not

Teen nightmares

I’m not sure how to deal with this. When the nightmares are trauma related. There’s very little support for teens with PTSD. I’ve tried happy thoughts before sleep, taking control on dreams by telling her to see me their saving her, talking about them; nothing so far seems to work. So now I lie awake

Reasons I was awake 3am onwards

Boy George, I hate Karma Chameleon he was on repeat in my head for hours! It didn’t matter what I tried, my usual 1,2,1,2 breathing and counting, he snuck in, thinking about waves on a beach, he was in the back ground, pretending in in a black hammock in a black room surrounded by a

Death Visits.

As the pain in my chest grows, my heart pounding as though trying to beat against the bone cage which surrounds it and escape, I feel my breath fleeting; struggling on the intake but rushing to leave me like my soul eager to release its self from this fleshy jail. Death hovers near, beckoning with

Restless slumber

As he breathes next to me I hear him moving, frantic like escaping from an unseen foe, ‘Two weeks ago..’ he murmurs, soft snores escaping and the rustling of bedding sounding sharp in the silence, The murmurs and sad wails continue, do I awaken this restless slumber, do I comfort this man, What are dreams

Recent nightmare

I’m observing a ball at the queens quarters and realise I’m not in 2022 anymore I’m looking at the strange red coats and yellow sashes and wondering which era I am in, trying to memorise the guard coats and fancy dresses. I’m so taken by the yellow sashes and I notice the guard is actually

Weird dreams #school

Disclaimer, this was just a dream! I’m sat in my mothers bedroom, on the Paisley bedding watching as she throws everything out of her fitted wardrobe. “There, look through that”, she says, her hair is in an eighties style, curled fringe and ends, wearing a black and red flowery dress she sighs and sits next

Furry Family

We had an addition to our family recently, a 15 week old Black Labrador retriever. I grew up with a black lab so he brings back memories but what I’m so surprised by is how quick he is to train. Within weeks he has the basics covered and we’re moving into more exciting games for

I haven’t posted for ages!

I’ve been very busy. Some days I’ve not been too well, dodgy back and hip pain combined with migraines of epic proportions are not a great mix. But most days I’ve been writing my new book ‘Spirit World’. It’s not quite ready, I’ve not yet found a publisher; but I haven’t really been trying either.