A few days ago, I was in terrible pain. I was scared and I was being rushed back into surgery. But I remember so vivid the colour and detail in features the dream I had after surgery. A golden person so bright they shone brighter than anything we can see, visited me. They did notContinue reading “I Was Visited.”
I havent posted for a while. Six days and it feels like months ago, time goes very slow when you don’t feel your best. Sorry for the last photo! But anyway, after I was discharged I went on an outpatient waiting list. 6-8 weeks. Despite me saying how sick I was on the tube feed.Continue reading “Bariatric Downs…”
I’ve had a great 15 day stay at the hotel NHS Hospital where I have seen first hand the hard work and effort the nurses put in to caring above and beyond their duties for those admitted. However, I’ve also experienced the miscommunication between consultants, difference of opinions resulting in differing advice and therefore ultimatelyContinue reading “Feeling a little let down”
They rush around in blue and white People crying Pain and sorrow Healing and heartache Waiting waiting waiting The patients are an endless sea Nurses the disappearing catch Soon the sea will be empty of catch and patients cut adrift to drown amongst themselves Growing ever vaster.
Looking pale Body failing Operated on slowly healing Hair white Bed pan in sight Up at night no delight Nurses fussing Feel ignored Sleep all day Soon get bored Unsure what else life has to offer Not quite sure why they bother Keep on smiling Say the right things Don’t complain Made of stronger things.
But damn the Tories and Branson. As I sat in A&E, at 7am, on Tuesday, doubled in pain, I look up and see the wait time list, 10 hours. Now luckily for me I guess, I’m not here with a break, I’m here with internal pain around my stomach and gall bladder and having hadContinue reading “Bless Our NHS”
So I’m often asked if I could have lost the weight without the surgery. Without a doubt yes! IF I had known what I know now. I had Bypass surgery so what they did was take a small egg sized slice from the top of my stomach, route some intestine to it to create andContinue reading “Weightloss with surgery?”
I realised I’ve been holding onto so much. Thoughts, opinions, things that are none of my concern because other peoples actions aren’t my issue and their thoughts their own not mine. I’m letting it all go, I don’t care because it’s none of my business too. I am only responsible for what I think andContinue reading “Let it go”
My husband has planned a surprise trip! Now I have to pack… Do I take fancy clothes, warm clothes or everything I own? He’s never done this before but said I needed a lift so part of my Christmas present is this. Proper giddy!
This journey is still a struggle. From knowing I’ll never be able to eat a full size meal to surgery problems and hair loss, there are pitfalls I wish I’d known prior to going through with it. The worst is actually the body dysmorphia. I still buy clothes too big and feel big myself andContinue reading “Love Yourself”