Broken but Battling

Today I went to the stables, it was warmer than usual. I normally sit all day and watch. Today I joined in, as far as my body would allow anyway. Moved some straw, led a pony; I felt like I contributed in my own little way. It felt good. I’m now sat in my pyjamas

Faith

Share one of the best gifts you’ve ever received. When I was in my twenties, I stopped taking birth control, my partner and I were trying to get pregnant. The years went by and hospital visits came and went, I tried fertility treatment and I had investigative surgery. It all took a huge toll on

I Was Visited.

A few days ago, I was in terrible pain. I was scared and I was being rushed back into surgery. But I remember so vivid the colour and detail in features the dream I had after surgery. A golden person so bright they shone brighter than anything we can see, visited me. They did not

Let it go

I realised I’ve been holding onto so much. Thoughts, opinions, things that are none of my concern because other peoples actions aren’t my issue and their thoughts their own not mine. I’m letting it all go, I don’t care because it’s none of my business too. I am only responsible for what I think and

Excited!

My husband has planned a surprise trip! Now I have to pack… Do I take fancy clothes, warm clothes or everything I own? He’s never done this before but said I needed a lift so part of my Christmas present is this. Proper giddy!

Love Yourself

This journey is still a struggle. From knowing I’ll never be able to eat a full size meal to surgery problems and hair loss, there are pitfalls I wish I’d known prior to going through with it. The worst is actually the body dysmorphia. I still buy clothes too big and feel big myself and

Teens need hugs too

Especially mine but on their terms of course. I don’t know what triggers anxiety and panic attacks with me or my teen, sometimes it just happens. Last night around 10.30pm I had a tearful, shaking 16year old rush in, jump in my bed and hug me. I held her close and told her I was

Silence is Golden

Not all the times of course, simple pleasure comes from sound. Silence of the mind however is worth more than any gold. Being able to turn off the internal monologue and chatter, such a beautiful thing to do. To be completely at peace. I’m working on this but it eludes me. Eventually I actually end

Such sorrow in Family Values

There was a young man who unfortunately married the wrong woman. He suffered years of abuse and when he found the strength to leave his parents picked up his shattered heart and life and gave him all they had to rebuild his life. They housed him and his children, sharing rooms so they could all

Short Story: Earth

It was as though the Earth had set motions into reverse. Women became a commodity for ownership, animals became meat, children became currency. The world was dying. The Men wanted to believe they could fix things. Alas they could not and as children starved and women fought again the chains of suppression to regain their