Weird dreams #school

Disclaimer, this was just a dream! I’m sat in my mothers bedroom, on the Paisley bedding watching as she throws everything out of her fitted wardrobe. “There, look through that”, she says, her hair is in an eighties style, curled fringe and ends, wearing a black and red flowery dress she sighs and sits next

Yesterday was X-ray day

Tomorrow is cancer specialist day. I’ve got to say though the staff at my GP surgery and everyone I’ve seen so far at the hospital has been amazing. Even got to keep my t’shirt on for the chest X-ray, phew! My husband drove me and came in, he asked about coming in with me tomorrow

Attacked

Every sound like a pin in my mind Every breathe a struggle When someone gets too close my vision gets blurry This feeling will not leave me A huge weight on my chest I hear his voice in my head Haunting my dreams We are all dead I was offered counselling But I’m not ready

Taking your temperature

Is it only me who has become obsessed with taking their own temperature? I’m even dreaming about it now. We have one of those thermometers you put in your ear and press a button it then measures your temperature and displays a green or red light along with the data to let you know if

What a day

I woke up and wrote my post about having a really great positive day…. The day went like this, awake at 12.30am, our the door at 1.30 am and arrive at the airport just before check in arrives, all goes well and we board, seats are great, some other passengers are a little rowdy but

Just a rant about today

I’m having a panic and my chest is killing, I know it’s just a panic so I’m trying to just stop and rest. I had some bad news and now I’m angry about the situation, it’s not even my situation it’s a close friends but I feel so deeply for people that I genuinely feel

Anxiety for me

I’m laid in bed right now and honestly my heart feels like it’s going to flutter out of my chest, I’m trying to keep calm and take deep breaths and of course distract myself by writing a little blog. Today’s first attack. Not great while not even up yet but it happens. This one caused