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Feeling a little let down

I’ve had a great 15 day stay at the hotel NHS Hospital where I have seen first hand the hard work and effort the nurses put in to caring above and beyond their duties for those admitted. However, I’ve also experienced the miscommunication between consultants, difference of opinions resulting in differing advice and therefore ultimatelyContinue reading “Feeling a little let down”

Let it go

I realised I’ve been holding onto so much. Thoughts, opinions, things that are none of my concern because other peoples actions aren’t my issue and their thoughts their own not mine. I’m letting it all go, I don’t care because it’s none of my business too. I am only responsible for what I think andContinue reading “Let it go”

Love Yourself

This journey is still a struggle. From knowing I’ll never be able to eat a full size meal to surgery problems and hair loss, there are pitfalls I wish I’d known prior to going through with it. The worst is actually the body dysmorphia. I still buy clothes too big and feel big myself andContinue reading “Love Yourself”

Silence is Golden

Not all the times of course, simple pleasure comes from sound. Silence of the mind however is worth more than any gold. Being able to turn off the internal monologue and chatter, such a beautiful thing to do. To be completely at peace. I’m working on this but it eludes me. Eventually I actually endContinue reading “Silence is Golden”

5am

I made a mistake. I ordered a pizza yesterday, it was amazing. I now have migraine, the pain isn’t too bad but I’m having auditory hallucinations, luckily not also visual and luckily again only music. This time to torment me it’s Fleetwood Mac, Go Your Own Way. I still have to take pain killers toContinue reading “5am”

Gastric Bypass Complications

Can I start with, if you are at all concerned about sickness, fullness after liquids, not being able to eat; do NOT ask in the online forums if it’s normal. Contact a GP and request an endoscopy to rule out blockages. You see I, having chatted online about my surgery was assured it was normal.Continue reading “Gastric Bypass Complications”

Body Changes & Gastric Bypass

Last weekend my husband and I went out. At one point I was walking behind him in a pub and he turned round to check I was still okay and behind him, he wasn’t looking for what I look like now and completely missed me! When he finally saw me he smiled and said thereContinue reading “Body Changes & Gastric Bypass”

Small steps…

I wanted to share some positive news! Last I blogged, I wrote about our struggles here coping with teenage depression and suicidal thought patterns. Here is me hoping and praying, that we are making steps in the right direction. Having gone from complete breakdowns and self harming to smiling, chatting and being more sociable, weContinue reading “Small steps…”