Sleepless

Why won’t my brain catch up with my body My eyes are heavy I need the sleep My mind starts singing or over thinking things I try to count Think of a pitch black space to darken the brightness in my head Thoughts rebel and put a disco on instead It’s like my minds on

Calming

I was just watching Tess Daly do an interview about her new book. During the interview she discussed breathing techniques, breathing in for 4 and out for 6 etc. this helps calm her when she is trying to sleep and can’t switch off. Now even that doesn’t work for me. But I use the one

Can’t sleep

Because my mind refuses to stop singing, ‘ GET THIS PARTY STARTED’ by Pink. I’ve not even heard this song for ages, maybe it was on an advertisement or maybe this is the start of a migraine, pain medication or stress; but I guarantee by the early hours I’ll be sick of this song. I’ll

Silence is Golden

Not all the times of course, simple pleasure comes from sound. Silence of the mind however is worth more than any gold. Being able to turn off the internal monologue and chatter, such a beautiful thing to do. To be completely at peace. I’m working on this but it eludes me. Eventually I actually end

5am

I made a mistake. I ordered a pizza yesterday, it was amazing. I now have migraine, the pain isn’t too bad but I’m having auditory hallucinations, luckily not also visual and luckily again only music. This time to torment me it’s Fleetwood Mac, Go Your Own Way. I still have to take pain killers to

Teen nightmares

I’m not sure how to deal with this. When the nightmares are trauma related. There’s very little support for teens with PTSD. I’ve tried happy thoughts before sleep, taking control on dreams by telling her to see me their saving her, talking about them; nothing so far seems to work. So now I lie awake

The Perfect Mundane

Written by Faye Firth   Crisp white sheets A heavy duvet The deep breathing of a loved one so close The darkness and peace  Surrounding the … The Perfect Mundane This is me ❤️

Cat Lady

She awakens covered in heavy little bodies All giving off a little heat They stretch and purr as she pulls on her own furs and she steps over them to give them treats Hundreds of tiny paws race at the sound of the crinkle of the packet and she sits with a drink and a

Reasons I was awake 3am onwards

Boy George, I hate Karma Chameleon he was on repeat in my head for hours! It didn’t matter what I tried, my usual 1,2,1,2 breathing and counting, he snuck in, thinking about waves on a beach, he was in the back ground, pretending in in a black hammock in a black room surrounded by a

3am Again

I’ve heard waking at certain times can mean a variety of different things, from vitamin deficiency to being awoken by the spirits. I awake with headache. Vitamin deficiency could be the cause following my bariatric surgery; I’ve barely been able to consume a newborns volume of food. Or perhaps, this is yet another migraine cluster