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Silence is Golden

Not all the times of course, simple pleasure comes from sound. Silence of the mind however is worth more than any gold. Being able to turn off the internal monologue and chatter, such a beautiful thing to do. To be completely at peace. I’m working on this but it eludes me. Eventually I actually endContinue reading “Silence is Golden”

5am

I made a mistake. I ordered a pizza yesterday, it was amazing. I now have migraine, the pain isn’t too bad but I’m having auditory hallucinations, luckily not also visual and luckily again only music. This time to torment me it’s Fleetwood Mac, Go Your Own Way. I still have to take pain killers toContinue reading “5am”

Teen nightmares

I’m not sure how to deal with this. When the nightmares are trauma related. There’s very little support for teens with PTSD. I’ve tried happy thoughts before sleep, taking control on dreams by telling her to see me their saving her, talking about them; nothing so far seems to work. So now I lie awakeContinue reading “Teen nightmares”

Cat Lady

She awakens covered in heavy little bodies All giving off a little heat They stretch and purr as she pulls on her own furs and she steps over them to give them treats Hundreds of tiny paws race at the sound of the crinkle of the packet and she sits with a drink and aContinue reading “Cat Lady”

Reasons I was awake 3am onwards

Boy George, I hate Karma Chameleon he was on repeat in my head for hours! It didn’t matter what I tried, my usual 1,2,1,2 breathing and counting, he snuck in, thinking about waves on a beach, he was in the back ground, pretending in in a black hammock in a black room surrounded by aContinue reading “Reasons I was awake 3am onwards”

3am Again

I’ve heard waking at certain times can mean a variety of different things, from vitamin deficiency to being awoken by the spirits. I awake with headache. Vitamin deficiency could be the cause following my bariatric surgery; I’ve barely been able to consume a newborns volume of food. Or perhaps, this is yet another migraine clusterContinue reading “3am Again”

Restless slumber

As he breathes next to me I hear him moving, frantic like escaping from an unseen foe, ‘Two weeks ago..’ he murmurs, soft snores escaping and the rustling of bedding sounding sharp in the silence, The murmurs and sad wails continue, do I awaken this restless slumber, do I comfort this man, What are dreamsContinue reading “Restless slumber”

Small steps…

I wanted to share some positive news! Last I blogged, I wrote about our struggles here coping with teenage depression and suicidal thought patterns. Here is me hoping and praying, that we are making steps in the right direction. Having gone from complete breakdowns and self harming to smiling, chatting and being more sociable, weContinue reading “Small steps…”

Exploding Head Syndrome

Yes, it’s a real thing abbreviated to EHS. I have this strange syndrome. Let me explain. When I’m falling asleep, or even fast asleep, I sometimes hear loud noises like a Big Bang or knocking. They startle me, they don’t happen all the time, they can wake me up with a jolt. When I sayContinue reading “Exploding Head Syndrome”