Fall time

Crisp evenings filled with the orange hues of the setting sun and the promise of a diamond frost across the ground creep closer. As leaves fall like flames from silent bonfires, scorching the ground and piling into hills by the unseen wind, children wrap up warm in scarfs and dive into a sea of molten

Vacuum of life

Such a strange feeling that is not really a feeling at all. The emptiness of one’s self; like a huge void which neither pulls or pushes. When the day starts with such thoughts you know you are feeling, you just don’t want to admit to your own mind, the creeping vine of depression, working it’s

Small steps…

I wanted to share some positive news! Last I blogged, I wrote about our struggles here coping with teenage depression and suicidal thought patterns. Here is me hoping and praying, that we are making steps in the right direction. Having gone from complete breakdowns and self harming to smiling, chatting and being more sociable, we

Three steps forward, two back

Just when you think a corner maybe turning, you’re thrown right back. We have a system in place at home. Like a traffic light system but with processes. So if you feel low, you don’t use your phone, you don’t sleep alone, you never are alone in a room, you eat with everyone else and

Teen mental health

Today I want to write about the current teenage mental health crisis in the UK, how unsupportive the system is and how dangerous the system is for our young people. This is from my own personal experience. My teen suffers with an anxiety disorder, is also apparently showing signs of autism, had had long standing

I AM WALKING ON EGG SHELLS! AUTISM?

My daughters always has social problems be it with school or large gatherings. I just thought she had a school phobia, the doctors didn’t think anything of it as she grew up, just normal child behaviour. Sometimes we had tantrums in shops, like most parents experience. I always cried outside her door at night wishing

Relief!

If you saw my last post, my GP scared the bejeezus outta me. Well done to them though for taking something seriously. I’ve since had, ultrasounds, examinations involving cameras up my nose and down my throat, physical examinations, seen three different specialists, had blood work done, the lot. I’m actually really impressed with everyone I’ve

Post something POSITIVE #psp

It’s such unusual times we live in and because of all the challenges we face daily, I don’t often find myself writing about anything positive! I get caught up in the daily negativity that’s thrown in our faces, the news, television, social media; this definitely has an impact on my mood. So I’d like to

Weird dreams #school

Disclaimer, this was just a dream! I’m sat in my mothers bedroom, on the Paisley bedding watching as she throws everything out of her fitted wardrobe. “There, look through that”, she says, her hair is in an eighties style, curled fringe and ends, wearing a black and red flowery dress she sighs and sits next

Yesterday was X-ray day

Tomorrow is cancer specialist day. I’ve got to say though the staff at my GP surgery and everyone I’ve seen so far at the hospital has been amazing. Even got to keep my t’shirt on for the chest X-ray, phew! My husband drove me and came in, he asked about coming in with me tomorrow