Do you feel like ‘friends’ are sabotaging your relationship?

They probably are. I get this sneaky suspicion that some ‘friends’ don’t want to see my husband and I back together. They are actively telling tales on him, things I already know. The thing is I know that if we are over for good, those friends won’t stay in contact with me. They are like

Dawn

Then the realisation set in It was not only trust that was lacking But also respect It walked out of that door the first time he left and never returned A lightbulb moment of realisation That he did not respect her in anyway There was no option now.

Sneezing after gastric surgery….. ouch!

Oh no one warned me. I wish I knew. That’s sneezing would be so burning painful after surgery too. It started with a sniffle, grew to full on sneeze. The pain shot through my abdomen and had me on my knees. Weeks later it’s still burning. It really hurts to move. Six to eight weeks

Painful Happy Memories

It dampens my days when happy memories come up, when I know I’m no longer part of future happy memories with that special person/s. Broken families are terrible but some just can’t be fixed. It’s not just a personality clash, it’s removing yourself from toxic and violent situations which result in you no longer being

Teen nightmares

I’m not sure how to deal with this. When the nightmares are trauma related. There’s very little support for teens with PTSD. I’ve tried happy thoughts before sleep, taking control on dreams by telling her to see me their saving her, talking about them; nothing so far seems to work. So now I lie awake

Three steps forward, two back

Just when you think a corner maybe turning, you’re thrown right back. We have a system in place at home. Like a traffic light system but with processes. So if you feel low, you don’t use your phone, you don’t sleep alone, you never are alone in a room, you eat with everyone else and

Recent nightmare

I’m observing a ball at the queens quarters and realise I’m not in 2022 anymore I’m looking at the strange red coats and yellow sashes and wondering which era I am in, trying to memorise the guard coats and fancy dresses. I’m so taken by the yellow sashes and I notice the guard is actually

The dangers of self help videos

When you suffer a traumatic experience at the hands of someone else, it’s natural to want to know why. Usually people will think it over, talk to friends or maybe even a counsellor and be satisfied that people are so complex, so different in thought patterns and feelings that a simple answer will suffice. Sometimes

Attacked

Every sound like a pin in my mind Every breathe a struggle When someone gets too close my vision gets blurry This feeling will not leave me A huge weight on my chest I hear his voice in my head Haunting my dreams We are all dead I was offered counselling But I’m not ready

Journey of the mind

I have no shame in saying I’m having some counselling right now. Talking and opening up about past events you haven’t been able to let go is good for your soul. Bottling all those emotions over years and years can weigh you down so much and create a black hole, that’s ever expanding. Yesterday’s session